Below is part 2 - I wasn't able to posting the message as one for some reason!!

I am typing from a point of clarity now but I know in a few days I'll be back on here scanning for horny stories and pics and I'll be back to square one again.
I really don't like the person I am! Nobody else knows, as I put on a nice presentable front and just mention occasionally that I am stressed because I'm so busy with work.
The lack of finances coming in and poor service given to my clients will have a very negative knock on effect if I don't change something.
Has anyone else been in my position and overcome it? I notice a lot of names posting here regularly, some working family men, and wonder how they afford the time for this?
Apologies for being a wet blanket but I need help!

Get some treatment.
Your problems sound deeper then masterbation. You are not facing the actual problem that most likely stems from some kind of developmental trauma as a child and you are turning to porn to distract yourself from a bigger issue, which it isn't curing. Your depression stems from the deeper emotional issues you are hiding from in porn. Similar to how an alcoholic or drug addict self medicates, you are doing the same with porn.

Thanks buddy, this may be my wake-up call. Can I message you directly about this?

I agree with Jaystar. Get some help, either with a group, or with a psychoanalyst. I've done both and both were helpful.

Your dick and your hand will always be with you, you just have to learn to manage them. It might seem like a great challenge, but others have met that challenge, and you can, too.